ONCE

Ang pelikulang paulit ulit akong pinaiyak. Hay.. Enjoy! :)

Falling Slowly

Hayun... Winner talaga ang taon na to... :)

Kahapon, nag church ako at dahil late na ako para sa 2PM Service. Nag-decide ako na um-attend na lang ng 4PM service and since I'm starving, naghanap ako ng makakainan. The Old Spagetti House ang napili ko dahil tago yung lugar, tahimik, masarap ang pagkain at masarap magisip.

Laking tuwa ko nang mapansin kong tinanggal na nila ang nakakadiring lalagyan nila ng tissue. Pampasira kasi yun ng ambience eh. Um-order ako ng Pesto with Grilled Chicken at Iced Tea. Solb! At inilabas ang scratch pad ko.

Ok na sana ang lugar, nasa may medyo dulo ako kaso ang ingay ng mga nagse-serve... Masyado silang malalakas tumawa at magusap. Meanwhile, naaliw naman ako sa isang pamilya na nagla-lunch. Very funny kasi yung daddy, he recited all the food on the menu for his daughter to choose from. They ordered a California Maki Pizza, pasta and I forgot the rest. Basta they look like a happy family and I'm happy for them.

The daughter was asking her dad kung nabasa na daw niuya yung anniversary greeting niya. The mom and dad was so cute... :) Hindi ko naman sinasadyang makinig sa kanila, it's just that they sound so happy i can't help but listen.

Ayun. Pagkatapos kong kumain pumunta ako ng Powerbooks as usual tapos Astrovision para bumili ng mga bagong vcd. Nadala na akong bumili ng orig na dvd, laging may sira.

Tapos service na. :) It's about thanksgiving, that in all circumstances we should be thankful because the moment we look at ourselves as a victim we will never feel blessed. Ayun. It makes sense. I was just so happy that day kasi nag aksaya na naman ako ng luha when in fact there's no reason for me to be lonely, I may not have much but I have enough for me to go on with my life.

Lunes.
Wala pa rin kaming pasok. Isinama ako ni Brother sa dati nilang site sa Makati para kunin yung premyo niyang flat screen TV. Ayos. Yun ng lang hindi ko na-enjoy yung Makati masyado, I wasn't able to visit my favorite spots dahil may dala akong tv and brother was too anxious, right after we got the tv, he walked me to the cab, paid for it and off he went to work. Wala na tuloy akong choice kundi umuwi.

Sa bus. Katabi ko ang isang cute na batang lalaki. Not really bata, I think he's in college, mga ganun, kasama ng mga kaibigan niya. My guess is that they're going to Enchanted Kingdom, why? Because it's the typical destination of typical teenagers.

Anyway, wala lang. Aliw lang.

Thank you God for being good to me, for being there no matter what.
Thank you for those who touched my life, family, friends who made this year a great one.
Sa lahat ng bagong kakilala at kaibigan.
Thank you for sharing your life with me.
Masaya ako na nakilala ko kayong lahat.
Nikki, Raiza, JM, Patrick, TL JE, TL Jan, Tracy, Ms Ria, Kat, Dhess, Mommy Pinky, Ate Che, Zack, Dhang, Jamby, mga kamakata, sa aking pamilya at lahat ng hindi ko nabanggit bilang ako'y may short term memory.
Salamat sa inyong lahat! Yakap!!! :)

Nasaan ka Homer?

Mamamama-migraine.

Very cute, again. I'm captured.

Christmas 2009

Ilang gabi na rin akong nagiinarte. For many reasons, that I felt my tear ducts deserved some exercise. That's why I went out today, lakad lakad, bili ng bagong libro, relax, clear my mind para makapag plano ako ng maayos.

This Christmas, regardless of what we believe in, of what we're going through and whatnot, I hope we don't forget the reason for the season; Jesus was born to redeem us, save us and give us hope.

Kahit maraming nangyari, I still am thankful for everything. I met a lot of interesting people, I gained new friends, there's a lot of open doors. Maraming maraming bagay akong dapat ipagpasalamat kay God. Kaya walang dahilan para malungkot.

Kagabi nga sabi ko kay God, I'm looking forward for greater things to come on the year 2010, I expect joy after mourning, I expect blessing after blessing. May kapalit na saya lahat ng lungkot na naramdaman ko.

Kaya naman nag register na ako sa PUP para sa next school year! Yahoo! Naghihintay na lang ako ng exam. Plano ko na kasing ipagpatuloy ang pagaaral ko ng literatura next year. :)

Since wala naman kaming plano kahapon. Sumama kami sa thanksgiving party ng church nila mommy. Swimming sa Pansol.

Everyone, sila, sila, everyone.


Mary, Bonbons and Brother

Marissa, Bonbons and Brother


Ako, Atero

Mary

Mary, Milcah, Atero

Mary at ang kanyang paboritong mga bata.
Patrick, Derik and Justine.

Yayay and Milcah


Atero, Me, Marissa

Ang ngiting nakakawala ng badtrip ko. Hehe!

Happy New Year sa inyong lahat! :)

Christmas Party

It could have been exciting if I was a party person but I'm not so at the last minute I changed my mind. Sorry Patrick, di ka na rin tuloy naka-attend dahil wala kang kasama, sorry TL Jan, dahil hindi ko nasuot yung dress na binili mo para sa akin. Well, hati daw kami, pero technically, parang siya ang nagbayad ng lahat.

Last Saturday, my friend and previous Ttech TL - Jan and I met up at as usual, SM Sta Rosa, may iba pa ba, but never mind the place, never mind everything, I'm just so happy I get the chance to hang out with her again. She's the Ate I never had, the best girlfriend I never thought I'll have.

Tamang tama pa kasi that time I feel so tired and frustrated with life, family, work. I needed a friend who knows how to listen and to give sound advise, someone who's honest and kind enough, who will be there for you na walang ine-expect na kapalit.

I think I've mentioned this before, siya lang ang nakipagkaibigan sa akin na walang hidden agenda, just pure friendship at kahit tila naghihikahos (naghihikahos talaga. hehe) na ako dahil sa bahay na binabayaran ko, I'm blessed to have her as a friend. Bonus na lang yung perks of being her friend eh, she shares everything she has and more. Kaya naiinis ako kapag may naninira sa kanya, kasi she doesn't deserve it.

Sobrang bait. Wala akong masabi, para ko talaga siyang ate.

Sunday.

So hindi ako natuloy sa SMX dahil tinamad ako, tinamad na rin si Patrick, tinamad na rin si Kat. Kaya pumunta na ako sa church at tama ako ng desisyon. I would never ever miss a service for a party.

I went to Wendy's right after reaching Festi. Bilang di pa ako kumakain ng lunch at late na ako para sa 2pm service. Pretending to eat healthy, I ordered chicken caesar salad, iced tea lite and a very healthy serving of coffee jelly frosty. Hehe! Kunwari pa. Anyway, comfort food for my weary heart.

I sat there for more than an hour I think. That long i felt like my butt 's shaped like the chair already. Hehe! Dun ko tinapos basahin yung IF YOU COULD SEE ME NOW because it's long overdue, it should've been finished days ago. Masyado na kasi akong nalilibang ng mga katabi ko sa office eh.

I'm on the last 3 chapters. Yung eksena, kailangan ng magpaalam ni Ivan kay Elizabeth. (Ivan is an imaginary friend who helps people who needs a friend). I was also expecting someone who turned out that he didn't recieve my sms.

I fought hard to keep the tears from leaking out of my eyes. The story ended how I expected it to be pero naiiyak pa rin ako. Bumalik na si Ivan sa pagiging invisible. A story of moving on with life kahit wala na yung taong mahal mo.

I took the last piece of crouton off my place and chewed it heavy-heartedly. Nalulungkot ako sa pagtatapos ng pagbabasa ko ng libro but I know it has to end, dahil marami pa akong nakapila na babasahing libro. I'll miss Ivan, Luke and Elizabeth.

Tapos nagpunta na ako sa worship center.

I can't help but think that Jc is my Ivan, siya nga lang yung opposite ni Ivan but he's the only person I feel most warm and safe with. He has that weird way of showing and making you feel that everything will be OK if not truly great. After all these time, no one can replace him. It is still him.

But like Ivan, he's not going to stay put, he can't even if we both wanted to. Like Elizabeth I had to let go and move on.

Those two years were the best years of my life. Dun ko kasi nalaman na kaya kong mabuhay para sa ibang tao. That I'm capable to love and see beyond the imperfections of the person and just love them for who they are and are not. Those were the best years...

Now, as the year 2009 is coming to its end. I've decided to leave the past behind, let go and move on. To start anew, fresh, to start a new year, a new season the right way. To love the right way. If there's such thing. :)

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
Philippians 4:8-9

Foretelling

Nothing happens by chance. Everything was planned by God. The supposed meeting, the changing of minds... Making decisions, doing things you're not at peace with. We (JC and I) were supposed to meet up after church, pero sabi nga ni Ate Lizel, if I don't have peace, wag kong gawin. I really appreciate friends like her, kahit mawalan kami ng contact, isang text ko lang, she would be more than happy to listen and respond.

So I decided not to, pero I was praying to God, if it's the right time, pagbaba ko ng jeep nandun siya and we'll talk. Napangiti na lang ako nung hindi ko siya nakita. Hindi pa nga tamang panahon.

Mangyayari kung dapat mangyari.

Hmm...

Sa dinami dami ng nangyari sa buhay ko ngayong 2009, masakit, masaya, mahirap at kung ano ano pa. There are still a lot of things to be grateful and thankful for. Lessons that I learned, some the hard way but still learning in whichever way made me a better and stronger person.

I'm looking forward for every Sunday of the week because I'm excited to have fellowship with God, what I didn't know is that God is more excited in meeting me every sunday more than I do. Palagi na lang akong pinapaiyak ni God, He never fails to make me feel loved and deserving to be loved even if I fail Him most of the time.

He's still faithful up to this date even when I'm not. If I don't know what to do, I can be assured that He does, so whatever happen, I just need to trust Him and I'll be fine.

The new series in our church, ANCIENT PROPECHIES reminds me about the very heart of God when He promised Christmas, when He sends Jesus to fulfill His promise of salvation and deliverance. Just thinking about it makes me cry and happy. To think that I did nothing to deserve such love from my God but He loves me anyway.

I'm just so happy. After the service, Meng and I went to Powerbooks as usual, sale pa rin kasi sila. Wala akong nagustuhan sa mga naka-sale. Pinuntahan ko na lang si Cecilia Ahern at hinaplos haplos ang mga libro niya. Hehe! Naisipang itanong kung meron pa silang ibang kopya nung medyo sira ng malaking version nung IF YOU COULD SEE ME NOW.

Yan yung cover nung nabili kong kopya. Yipee!
(Ms Ria on FB: What makes Mary De Leon work up a sweat?
Her answer: hahaha, maybe by reading books!)
Isama mo na rin po ang paghahanap ng libro, nakakapagod! :)

Sabi ni Ate, "Ma'am, mura na po yan, halos kapareho na lang ng presyo nung paperback, tapos may discount pa, dati yang 600php." Tapos tinanong niya sa manager kung magkano ang ibibigay na discount. 30% daw. Sabi ko, "You got it Ate." Nabili ko lang ung libro ng 251php! Merry Christmas to me.

Ang saya. Hindi ko siya mabili bili kasi kuripot ako sa sarili ko eh. I would only buy books sa booksale or unless naka sale. Kaya nung nabili ko na yun, iniwas na ako ni Meng sa mga libro nagpunta na lang kami sa Odyssey para tumingin ng mga dvd. Binili ko yung Bridget Jones's Diary dahil nandun ang isa sa mga paborito kong Hollywood artist, si Colin Firth. :)

Samantala....

Grace, Me and Jebelina. PeopleSupport buddies.

Bigla ko silang namiss dahil ti-nagg ako ni Jebe sa FB. :(

Ramdam ko na ang pasko at ang panimula ng bagong season sa buhay ko. Ikaw ramdam mo na rin ba ang pasko?

Hmmmm

Thought.
Deep Deep Thought...
Thought...
I thought...
I tho
A Puting Cat.

Currently Reading: Howard Norman's IN FOND REMEMBRANCE OF ME

What good is intelligence if you cannot discover a useful melancholy?

- Ryunosuke Akutagawa