Fragile

Look for a word stronger than GAIN, he answered, Gain plus. tsktsk. Hehe.

Hay... You'll come to a point where in you'll realize again even if you have proven many times before that money is just as unrealiable as human. Oh yeah, tell me why, why, please dont tell me that it's human nature. Tinitignan ko na lang kung anong nagaabang sa akin pagkatapos ng lahat ng pagtitiis at paghihirap na to. Oh yeah, it's human nature. May karapatan naman siguro akong magdrama kasi I work my ass off everyday tapos.. Hay... Wala ng natira. Haha! Lagi na lang akong nagbabayad ng utang ng iba...

Hay... Enough right? Count your blessings instead of sheep. I'm blessed because I have a job, I'm blessed kasi kung nahihirapan man ako magbayad ng bahay, at least its going to be mine, thats something to look forward to. I'm blessed because I'm alive and well. I'm blessed because I have my family. So why worry? I mean, look at the birds in the air and the lily in the fields, God provides for their food, shelter and clothing. Ako pa kaya na anak Niya. Instead of fixing my eyes sa mga problema, might as well fix my eyes to the Source- God will take care of the problems and my job is to seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and EVERYTHING will be added to me as well. Matt. 6:33 I know it will all get better in time. What I can do for now is take what I can, enjoy what I have and trust that God will follow through.

I know right? Wala lang. Gusto ko lang mag vent out. Gusto ko lang ilabas ang hindi kayang ilabas ng tsaa. Kahit minsan lang. Akala kasi ng iba hindi na ko tinatablan ng bala. Hindi sa akin bagay yung mahina, kaya totoo talaga na hindi ka bibigyan ng Diyos ng pagsubok na hindi mo kaya.

Then you'll realize, grabe pala ang tingin at tiwala sa iyo ng Diyos. If God thinks I can handle this much, He must've seen something in me and I feel grateful, sino ba naman kasi ako para magreklamo. If God thinks I can do this, means I can do this, not by my own strength though, but through God who gives me strength.

So why worry about the future, let the future worry about itself for today has enough trouble on its own... I pray that things will get better between my beloved TL and her love. Having my relationship broken doesn't mean that the relationship of the people around me needs to fall apart too. Kailangang putulin na ang sumpa ng Ttech Sta Rosa! We all deseve to be happy.


Be happy. :)